September 1st i started the journey to start Peritoneal Dialysis (PD). The surgeon pulled my catheter to the surface and about 5-6 weeks I was supposed to start dialysis. Five weeks later my PD tube started leaking. I had surgery October 7th to have the first catheter removed, and a new one inserted on the other side of my abdomen. This was done under general anesthesia using Laparoscopic Techniques. Three incision, one for the air to extend the abdomen, one for the laparascopic tool and one for the surgeon to insert the catheter.
It has taken double time for me to start PD. The build up of getting everything ready, trying to get mentally prepared lead to quite anticipation. Today we were supposed to start. I was supposed to do my first treatment tonight. But due to a small little set back, we will have to wait until Monday, five days from today.
I don't know if I'm upset or relieved. It is hard to know what emotion I feel. The build up of anticipation was intense and I was getting stressed. I wanted everything to work out well. I had a cleaning lady coming in for about a month, helping me getting everything clean and ready. PD you must have a clean area. I can't have dog hair drifting by. We need to keep particles in my bedroom to a minimum. Getting Peritonitis, inflammation of the peritoneal cavity (infection), is serious. It creates a lot of problems. So it is important that I keep my area clean. When my cleaning lady quit the day before we were going to start dialysis, and my house wasn't quite ready yet, that really added to the stress and the less time for me to get everything in order. Cleaning all day, I was on edge.
But deep down inside me when I found out I was not going to start dialysis, a little bit of me went "YAY!". I just knew i was stressed and not realized. If you are stressed you will make more mistakes. I think bumping to Monday relieved some of my stress. I have part of the weekend to get my place even cleaner and my area ready. It is for the better, but the let down with all those stress hormones just takes awhile to adjust.
i will be just fine. And in this case, the better thing did happen.
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